I'm afraid I don't have much to report. I went to the social security office yesterday. I have a phone appointment with someone who works for them tomorrow. I also put a call into Keith's work. His boss is trying to get me connected with the correct person in HR.

It's hard to believe that Christmas is almost here! I have only bought one present. My niece is the lucky one! It isn't going to be much of a Christmas without Keith this year. At first, I told my mom that I wanted to go somewhere that didn't hold any memories, but I think we may just stay here. (All the traveling wore Lincoln out. He is just now getting into his schedule again.) It's going to be a very simple Christmas. I don't have any decorations out. I just couldn't do it this year. Luckily Lincoln isn't old enough to know the difference.

Today we are all going to eat lunch at a friend's house. I am also planning on going to church tonight. I haven't been in weeks. That is going to be a hard step. It's not that I'm mad at God. It is hard because Keith and I always did that together. It is also difficult to see other young families. I can't help but watch dads holding their kids and think that Lincoln will never remember Keith holding him in his arms.