We're back at home. Lincoln had a good visit with his Meme and Pops. He was fairly well behaved, though his sleep schedule was a bit off. I went down to my parents on Saturday. It was nice to get away for a few days.

While I was driving down, I couldn't help but think about the last time that Keith and I drove to see my parents. It was the Thanksgiving before last. We were discussing baby names all the way down to Houston. We already had a girl name picked out. Each of us took turns saying a boy name that we liked. I mentioned the name Lincoln. Keith asked if he could call him Link for short. (I think a character in Zelda is named Link. I was never really into games, so I could be wrong.) I told him that would be fine, and that is how Lincoln got his name.

It was so weird not to call Keith when I got to my parents' house. We always called to check in when we traveled alone. It makes me so sad to think that I don't have anyone to "check in" with anymore. I really miss talking to Keith. I miss that companionship.

I had a lot of time to think-a little over 10 hours to be exact. I thought a lot about life as I was driving. I thought about what life will be like for Lincoln and me. My plans are to sell the house and move closer to my parents. I'll get a job teaching. Lincoln and I will be fine. Yes, money will be a little tighter than it would have been with Keith around, but we'll make it.

Though we will be fine, I couldn't help but think about the differences between this life and the one I thought we would live. I wanted to have a husband. I wanted to stay home with Lincoln. I wanted to have more children. Although those hopes and dreams have been shattered, they still remain on my heart.

I ask that you pray that God will grant me peace when I worry about the future. Pray that God will grant me wisdom to make good decisions. Pray that God will bring me comfort when I am lonely.