It's been a while since I have actually sat down and "put words" on the blog. The past week has been really hard. It is hard to see your best friend sick. It is hard to know that we came close to losing her. Things are looking good for Jordan now. She is going to be able to take the Gleevek. I believe the hope is that this drug will make the two tumors that she still has go away and prevent new tumors from forming.

Though I am so happy for the good news that Jordan and her family received, I would be lying if I said I'm not a little jealous. It's not that I wish bad things for her family. I just wish that both of our stories could end with a happy ending. Instead they are rejoicing, and I am revisiting the pain of loss.

For me, grief comes in waves. I'm sad for a while, and then I'm okay. Then something happens or someone says something, and it comes back again. I will say that as time goes by, the waves come less often and hit with less force.

On a happier note, Lincoln is doing great! He is so much fun these days! He loves to crawl and pull up on things. He loves to get into drawers and cabinets! He is one busy boy, but he will also slow down every once in a while and cuddle. This morning he managed to pull off the top tray to his highchair by pulling on one of his toys that was suctioned to the tray. This boy has some big muscles!